Mission accomplished. I got the picture. I will post it once I figure out how. But, here are the logs so far (thank goodness for MSG Plus!)

XXXX..: HELLO SEX THERAPIST...analyse this
[19:08:13] JennX - Set..: hello again..
XXXX@hotmail.com would like to send you the file
"Under2.jpg" (21 Kb).
[19:09:32] JennX - Set..: Hmm.. it's blocked.. can you email it
please?
XXXX..: I EMAIL IT

And he does. Ends up it's a picture of a GIANT WANG. His, I'm sure.

XXX..: where do you live
JennX - Set..: I would rather have had a picture of your face....
XXX..: ok
XXX..: you send one different that your profile and i'll sent two...promiss
XXX..: i'm sending them as we speak vis email
XXX..: i trust you'll do the same
JennX - Set..: I don't have any other pictures on file....
XXX..: find them i just send two of mine
JennX - Set..: this is a work computer, so I don't have my own personal files on here....
XXX..: if you interested in having so kind of sexual fun call me.....and send picturre...
XXX..: did you get my pictures
JennX - Set..: yes..sorry.. have to go... on the phone.

So, he does send me his pictures. Surprisingly, he's not an uggo. So, now that I have what I want, I try to let him down gently, and try to get him to see the error of his ways:

XXX..: and what are the chance of we getting together
JennX - Set..: I'm afraid I have a moral objection to all of this.. it would be one thing if you would single or
whatever, but I just don't think it's right if there is a child in the picutre.
XXX..: child in what picture
XXX..: you will never be pregnant by me
JennX - Set..: nonono.. I mean *you* have a *son*
XXX..: my son will alway be in my life
JennX - Set..: Have you thought about how what you are doing would affect him if he found out?
XXX..: yes i have ...but he still be in my life...and caught...never
XXX..: because you denia it..and so will i
JennX - Set..: how can you be sure of that, though?
XXX..: where do you live
JennX - Set..: it says on my profile.
XXX..: new brunswick
XXX..: let be seriuos
XXX..: serious
XXX..: is this to much to ask from you
XXX..: that fact that i'm married,...with kid..i dont want a relantionship...i what sexual fun
XXX..: is this just to much for you
JennX - Set..: Yeah, I understand that, but I don't believe in hurting people in the process, so, if you want that kind
of 'fun', you probably should look elsewhere.
XXX..: that exactly what i wanted to hear....

I was pretty surprised on his reaction. It's what he wanted to hear?

JennX - Set..: hope things work out for you..
XXX..: there has to be someone out there that will be able to provide me this fantasie....and since your not interestedd....well thx...i have to go

At this point I try a last ditch effort to try to enlighten the poor guy. I realize that I may have over-stepped some unspoken boundary here, but what can I say? I yam what I yam.

JennX - Set..: Maybe your wife would.. there's a lot to be said for role playing.
XXX..: look to analyse someone else please
JennX - Set..: I don't look for them.. they just seem to come to me....
XXX..: last warning

So, he got defensive, I went offline. And that's the end of that. Pictures to come soon (don't worry, I'll exclude the giant wang).

He's a bit of a keener and came online as I posted my last post. But, I'm aborting the mission. I like to exploit these type of men because I feel they are trying to exploit me, but it's not so funny if when they have kids. Then it's just... sad. I might talk to him one more time to get a picture, but that's only so if I see him, I can kick him in the groin.

XXXX..: hello
JennX: Hello....
XXXX..: so you like the letter
JennX: Not necessarily.. Just curious...
XXXX..: about
JennX: Well, you.
XXXX..: i like the fact that you studying in
sexuality
XXXX..: i would like to caress a woman and make her
feel special
JennX: Yeah, most people find that pretty interesting. :)
XXXX..: that why i wrote you the letter
XXXX..: if you not interested..in getting the
massage of your life...that ok
JennX: I think you must do this fairly often...
XXXX..: i never cheated on my wife...and i will be
selective asbout who i do this with
JennX: Why are you thinking about doing it?
XXXX..: mid age crises
XXXX..: excuse the speeling...french
JennX: why not just get a hooker?
XXXX..: they will do anything....no idea...i want
someone that can expresses for idea...what she like...who i
can do it...etc.....hooker...are there for money..and will
fake everything
XXXX..: does this make sence to you
XXXX..: and i'm willing to send you pic..and then if
you find me appealling we'll go from there
JennX: Yeah, send me a picture..
XXXX..: and if i find you appealling...i'll do the
same
XXXX..: i'll be back at 9:00pm tonigh
JennX: I probably won't be.. but I'm sure I'll see you
again..
XXXX...see you then...son volleyball...at 6:00
pm...have to go
XXXX..: later

See, this is why I like Hotmail. Cuz I get email like this:

"After reading your profile, I was very intrigued by what you mention. This may seem as little different from the entire letter you’ve received…. Well to this I say …I’m different… Therefore discrete and secrecy are to me two things I value the must…. For this is one reason you’ve never seen me in Clubs or bar…

My Fantasy …First would like to enter a candle light room with Jacuzzis …bottle of champagne (chilled)…We enter the Jacuzzi and consume the champagne…Second…. Would like to caress a woman from the neck down…. Okay, at this point, he starts to get a little graphic. No need to sully my blog with smut. Well I’ll leave up to you to ask…. I will give
it my 150% to fulfil your fantasy. I suppose you can tell that I’m French by the numerous spelling mistake in this letter…I’m also good with my hands

I am in a relationship (married) so I am looking for someone who can be discreet and understands my position...

Looking forward to hearing from you

In order for this to happen we should meet or talk on MSN messenger to discuss any change in the event to follow… …. Hopefully you will write back to me to express your opinion on this endeavour…Hope to hear from you soon…

XXXXXXX.

Ps ………..email …XXXXXXXXX@hotmail.com
If you require picture please sent one of yourself and request that i sent one…


So, obviously I tend to attract men of the franchophone, skeevy variety. So, again, I shall turn this into a wee experiment. I added him to my contacts, and am logging our 'chats'. Maybe he can tell me what a ti-turn is.

Oh, by the way, gals, I checked out his profile, and he's a 43 year old financial planner, from Moncton. I'll keep you all in the loop.

So, I had a nifty day with Sarah today.. She got a new car! It was highly enlightening. I still don't think that salesmen treat women the same way they treat men. I was noticing Mort (not the cat, the car salesmen), would enter (what I percieved to be) Sarah's personal space. She didn't really notice it, but if it was me, I would have gotten the heeby-jeebies. I don't know if it's an intimidation tactic or maybe I'm just paranoid. I'm sure salesmen take some kind of psych course when they are in training.

Anyway, it was all very exciting. Now I want to be like her and make a big-ticket purchase - like a computer. But, we have to wait to hear on all these flippin' jobs that are on the go. No work from AIDS NB, but I should be able to work at the Access Center full time, hopefully. I'll keep you all in touch.

Leave it to my sister to say something poignant and . . . reassuring. I told her my worries about this interview, bu then she says "well, you're always going to be younger and less experienced than someone else, so just get over it". So, I guess I have.

I've realized, though, that I've told everyone and their dog about this thing, so I'll have a lot of sympathetic faces to deal with if I don't get the job. I know it's not a big deal, I just hate people feeling sorry for me.

On a completely unrelated topic, I moan in my sleep. I knew I used to do this when I was in university, but I thought I was over it. Now I realize I haven't slept with anyone for so long that I had no frame of reference. Anyway, Sarah mentioned it to me this morning after staying at her place, and I must say I felt proud. Lots of people snore, but not very many people moan. Plus, maybe they think I'm, like, getting it on in my sleep.

Actually, during a quick search, I found this site. Though I am obviously on the 'mere annoyance' side of the scale, I find it interesting that they put it in a sexual category. I never have sex dreams ('cept for one where I had sex with each member of the Beasties Boys), so it's not like I'm responding to a dream, it just happens. As a matter of fact, I was watching 'Who's the Boss' this afternoon, and I starting dozing off, but I actually woke myself up a few times due to my own moaning. It's interesting that they think it is linked to some misfit brainwaves, which is just neat (neat because I'm on the 'annoying' side, not the 'rape my partner side...'). Anyway, it's all very fascinating.. To me. :D

On the advice of my attorney (heh heh), I'm updating my blog. I've got an interview next week for MY DREAM JOB. It's really, really, really scary. I just finished reading over the THREE PAGE job description, but luckily, I think I can do most of what's on there. My weaknesses are with budgets, and the business side of things, but I've also had lots of experience in that area to make up for it. The other two major things I lack are bilingualism (which I have, but I'm just a wussy anglophone) and a valid driver's license. If I get this job, I will, indeed, get my license. To me, that's almost as scary as the interview. I've really got a problem with the notion that I take my life into my hands when I get behind the wheel of a car, or even worse, I take another's life into my hands. Shirking responsibility? Maybe...

Anyway, this is all pretty nuts, and I'm trying to accurately gauge my confidence level through all this. I've got a gut feeling that there's probably someone out there better than me to do this job. I guess I just feel young and inexperienced... but so eager.

I will try to keep y'all update on how things are going. A bientot!

Jenn.

PS: I just realized I never said what the position is: It's Education Co-ordinator for AIDS NB in Fredericton. I'd be responsible for planning, overseeing, and evaluating different programs, as well as other really cool things like the Information Line, and Needle Exchange Program (super cool!), and other harm reduction type programs. Oh my GAWD.